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Hello loves! How are we all on this fucking freezing day? I'm 97% sure that my invisible balls dropped off because of the cold. Well.

I think you can guess what the title translates to and it is exactly what I did today. Reflect! Yay! *cheers & fires confetti cannons & lights sparklers & blows party horns*

I forgot to take a picture of what I wore but I promise I will next time.. Let's just say my pink braces finally got to be shown to the world a little bit. ;)

NGL, I thought today was going to be boring and quite frankly, a load of shit. But it wasn't. It was funny, enjoyable, reflective.. insert more positive synonyms here. It really made me think about myself as a person, my friends and my relationship with God, as corny as that sounds. 

One of the leader's personal stories in particular really hit home for me. She explained how she doubted God's existence and support because so many bad things had happened in her life that He didn't fix or stop from happening. I'm still not sure what or who I believe in and if God really does exist because of all the horrible things that have happened in my own life. Granted, I'm blessed in so many ways but that doesn't mean there hasn't been things that have happened to me that I truly believe I didn't deserve. 

Her speech/story did change my mind and affect me quite a bit though. I'm still confused with all this higher power business but her experience and YMT's drama has helped me realise that no matter how many wrongs I've done, how many times I doubt Him or say that I don't believe in Him, He will never abandon me and will always be a part of who I am, whether I choose to convert to Agnosticism or not.

I know. I know what you're all thinking.

LEAVE ME AND MY RELIGIOUS SIDE ALONE! Haha.

Another thing that really got to me was when another YMT leader spoke about finding friends that accepted her for who she is and all that jazz. So let me take a moment to introduce two girls who have changed my life for the better.

I thought this photo was hilarious and embarrassing at the same time so WHY NOT

These two people have been there for me since the start of 2010 and have accepted my past, all of the drama I've brought and my every flaw. Before I'd become close to them, I wasn't in the best place regarding friendships and that. And even then they were in the background, just always there. 

After and during my rough patch with my old friendship group, they picked me up and rebuilt me, whether they knew they were doing it or not. They didn't judge me from what I had done, from what they had heard, or what sorts of drama I had caused. Ya know what they did, though? They supported me throughout everything in these past two years and have shaped me into the best person I could possibly be.

They've made a pretty fucking massive impact on my life and without them, I honestly don't know where I'd be. Without Sandy, (on the left), I would not laugh half as much as I do, wouldn't be as carefree as I am and definitely would not be the person I am today. She's taken the time to understand me like nobody else has and sometimes I think she knows me better than I know myself. 

That also applies to Molly, who has made my life a thousand, no, a million times better. The both of them. She gives me unconditional support, a shoulder to cry on and is basically a human diary I can tell anything and everything to. I'm gonna say it.. I'm gonna get all dramatic.. I trust them both with my life. (Maybe not Sandy. If I were about to fall down a flight of stairs she would lightly push me and claim that she was helping me. How do I know this? BECAUSE SHE DOES IT EVERY TIME IT HAPPENS!)

They've seen me at my worst, my best and my in betweens. Despite our differences and how completely opposite we are in so many ways, we fit together. Like a jigsaw puzzle. (Yep I used the cliché and LONG HAIR DON'T CARE!!!!) We're a package deal tbqfh and I don't know how the hell I was lucky enough to end up with these two, but by God I'm grateful as fuck for them. They are truly the best friends I could have ever asked for and I love them to the ends of the earth.

So thank you, Molly and Sandy, for coming into my life, for accepting me, for fixing me, for making me a better person and for just being you.

Geez all of that was longer than I expected. Oops. I know I promised more photos and I haven't fulfilled that yet but I will! I swear!

So on to more exciting news (about The Voice)..

As expected, LAKYN GOT THROUGH TO THE LIVE ROUNDS! WEYYYHEYYYYYYYY!!!

And.

AND.

AND!

Adam (@adammartinhq) followed me on Twitter and REPLIED TO MY TWEET. So yes, this makes me a little happy. JUST A LITTLE.

Did I mention my BFF Kevin Rudd (@kruddmp) is following me as well? After he saw my tweet that said something along the lines of "RUDDY! MA HOMIE! Follow me please? x" Just callin' the former Australian Prime Minister 'homie'.. as you do.

My Twitter is clearly where all the cool kids are at.

Happy days.

Hope y'all had a wonderful day, despite the horrid weather! Don't forget to smile today!

P.S I'm so sorry today's post has been a bit of a corny, la di da one.. Today's been very reflective and feelings-y. Lol at my embarrassing lack of vocabulary.

k x